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watched the second in the series of the three colours...yesterday night...stayed up till 2:30 am watching that film...another masterpiece by Krzysztof Kieślowski another of those oh my god love can be so painful *sob sob* moments towards the end...this ones about a Polish man who is a hairdresser and has a french wife. Movie starts off with her seeking divorce at a french high court...on the grounds that Karol ( the guy) couldn't consummate their marriage...and later she adds she doesn't love her husband anymore...the story moves on...Karol manages to get back to Warsaw with the help of a fellow polish bridge player Mikolaj...and eventually he becomes a rich , successfull businessman...who still hasn't been able to forget the wife and still loves beyond anything...he fakes his own death and frames his wife Dominique for it by crafty means...and the film ends with him staring at his wife in a prison cell....tears streaming down his eyes....

It got me thinking how powerful can love be....I mean if you love someone dearly and you are loved back...its all well and good....if not theres a chance that all hell might break loose....and I draw my example from this film....he was so much in love with his wife...but her repeated "no"for an answer to his "please come with me to Poland!" and his hatred for her....or may be her lack of reciprocation to his emotions.....turned him into a Mad-man with a purpose---a desire to see her suffer for making him suffer....

I have been through few such situations myself sometimes I have been on the receiving end , at some other times on the giving end....but I'm yet to feel emotions so strong as to be able to do something as crazy....I guess just havn't met that one person yet....who would bring that side of me out in the open....

Would like to know what any joe-blow would do on being blown away by some one they thought they loved more than anyone else....feel free to share your experience here....

Apart from this occassional escape into the virtual world where I can make evrything come true...to my likings....I have been rather busy...lifes turned into a mad rat race again....I wake up in the morning around 8 to 8:30 am everyday thinking oh crap I should have got up earlier....then I catch the bus to uni (yes i have started catching the bus instead of goin train-bus, allows me a fair bit of book reading time to and fro...) and once at uni....thankx to the idiots who are called "receptionist", try their hardest to make life a tad more difficult than it already is....I mean sisnce the time our room in the school has been taken away from us...I have to practically go beg them to let me use one of the many others that are not in use and lie locked up accumulating dust.....thanks to my uncle....he managed to get me through to the head of school and finally I have a room again....:) my dataset has been the core of all misery in my life over the past week and a half....its been giving bizarre...spurious results....God knows why...and I'm still in a fix about my final model....less than a month away from my final presentation....without the model...I can't work on the general stats...the analysis....my personla contribution...comparison with other studies in this field...or my conclusion...bloody HELL!!!

seems like the world is out to get me...nothing is going right in life starting from the tiniest thing to whatever else is of importance....to make matters worse I have also caught a bad cold...been sneezing,coughing incessantly..have a red runny nose...and it seems to be a never ending spell of winter...like the 100 year winter in NARNIA....( Narnia-the lion the witch and the wardrobe)....

I lost my glasses yet again...and now have to settle for lenses again much to my joy...my dad was surprised how I managed to loose three glasses over half a year...I told him...I always knew god wanted me to look HOT...which i so don't look if I have glasses on... ;).... Have an appointment with my optometrist tomorrow morning....and should have my 20/20 vision back latest by monday... :)