hmmmm

unnecessary complications...and morons screwing things up...has become the way of life...it seems...

donno what to name it...

I haven't been able to completely fight off the blues...but somethings making a difference...guess what?? well off course Spring! Springs finally here and O mY my moods got a very high correlation coefficient with the weather..I can't handle gloomy rainy cold days...No wonder people in Britain complain all the time...crap weather has a lot to do with ones mood...
Its a wonderful feeling...the feel of pleasant gentle spring/summer breeze around...and yahooo beach days ahead too....and I also realised that I have been a recluse for a while..no human interactions and anger just too much to handle....So even though my things due in less than a fortnight...I decided to socialise and lighten up the mood the coming weekend...hopefully itll help....

I spent yesterday doind a tiny bit of research and mostly household chores...did a hell of a lot of laundry and cleaning...well couldn't leave the house since it was pouring every five minutes or so.....Have been watching House MD compulsively...

Had a meeting with a lecturer and fellow colleague first thing in at uni...I mostly nodded and uttered an occasional "hmm" "yes" "oh yeah" "absolutely" "fine"....coz i was incredibly sleepy...this after a weekend of pleasant 8 to 9 hrs sleep...donno why...but now I shall have to figure out what the meeting was about for myself before i have to teach that material tomorrow in class...:'(

I'm quoting a random blogger off the web..."Everybody is familiar with this day(monday)- it's a day when zombies rise from their death, walking aimlessly looking for things to remind them the suffering is real"...he says...

A Mundane Monday is a must. Even if you can temporarily disable the lethargic aura and face the day with your false sense of optimism, there's some 50 Mondays waiting next...and so it is...so true....

I'm slowly getting an interest for photography...well someday if im rich enough I plan to buy myself a camera...and go globe trotting and just click snaps of everything and anything...people into photography...u should check out the national geographic website....have some pretty amazing snaps up there...and mostly shot by random amatuers or about any bloke who layed a hand on a camera and happened to be at the right place at the right time with a camera in hand....but bloody brilliant some of them are....

I have been wanting to travell around the globe since the time I gained cognitive powers...I reckon its not gonna be that difficult to do it when the urge is so strong and all I can think about is this for a while....Well well...I am still on the lookout for fellow travellers...people willing to join in on the trip....three new cities got added to my must go list...Moscow, St Petersberg (previously aka leningrad) and the ancient city of persepolis...

An average Indian travells a lot apparently...I havn't been fortunate enough to travell around my own country that much...but hopefully things are about to change...and I have all these outlines in my grey matter...waiting to become reality.....

Well well.....for people who follow the Australian Idol 08...do you think Luke Dickens looks like he has a face vagina....(courtesy FRIENDS)...his little face fungus .....sticking out of his chin...looks like straightened pubic hair...!! this is what my friend P thinks...and I have to say the descriptions pretty close to the real thing... ;)
want proof..check this out..;)http://www.australianidol.com.au/photos.html?xmlFile=3017.xml

Have a great week people.....

with or without a reason...

I don't know if I should be happy or sad....I mean for any random joe blow..harry or dick....I would appear to be a normal happy soul...but I'm not....I think I know what the reasons are at times...but at others I'm at a loss for reasoning...to rationalise my own reactions and behaviour....

I'm not all that unpredictable...but theres this anger burning up a hole in me...anger for what I do not know....but I know I have this excess energy that needs to be channelised before it leads to something extreme....lifes been a boring monotonous something for as long as I can remember and I don't see it changing anytime soon....which pisses me off majorly....

I like things/people I would myself not categorise as nice/amiable....when I ask myself why...I can't find a reason for it.....well I can to an extent but still doesn't justify why I would stick to such and such....my studies are nearing an end....

Wanna switch my stream.....most people see it as immature and eccentric....but to me I have my own reasons....It'll make me happy...actually more than that....I am looking for a niche to ...get away from the mental turmoil that is churning up inside everyday.....

for now that has to be put on halt.....coz of lack of the right things.....but I hope I can get back to it a year or two from now....even to myself it sounds too far fetched at times......but I hope the instinct stays alive and I can pursue it....if not It'll be a regret i shall nurture forever...what if I had given it a try.....

theres too many what if's circling around teh periphery of me cephalon at all times....if only i could get some answer...if only.....

on a different note....I have been working my ass offf for the past few weeks....my supervisor is a boob-staring-good-for-nothing-ass who has not done much to help me with my research....he is not even hot..!!

I have been downloading a lot of disney animations and all of house MD episodes for a while now....I already have all of season 4...shall soon have the rest...a great addition to my repertoire...:)

I absolutely love house...I know you must be thinking (if u at all watch it) whts so great abt him....everything....he's whole persona is so attractive...hot old men..I have hots for lot of them....:).....Ihave changed my sleep cycle totally...I go to sleep arnd 3:30 am on all days but tuesdays....and I also am sick of teaching idiotic-dumb-arses-who-have-brains-the-size-of-peanuts....feel like stabbing myself at times....gets to me at times...:(

I still havn't been able to watch persepolis... :'( someone please come with me...anyone...please please....

watch this...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y_QMFJUX3JY&feature=related:) I plaigiarised the title of the post...its one of my favourite posts by a fellow blogger...oh but i guess its not plaigiarising...if i'm acknowledging it...:P

realisations...

I have a whole two months and 9 days till i fly out of here.... :)
I have started to like things I didn't... a good 6 mnths back....
I'm on good terms with someone I used to dote on again...(after a very bad phase which seemed to be here to stay)
I love and am obsessed with red....(next buy- beautiful blood red saree )....
I can be very patient if I want to....but equally impulsive when it comes to certain things.....
I am a different person from what I was a good two years back....
I like research work more than having to slog with stupid coursework units.....
I hate...absolutely detest winter...specially here......
I love the good old bengali "ädda"....(who doesn't??)...lol
I was never a big fan of fish as a kid..but now I would do anything for fish...
I tend to make a good judgement based on intuition and happen to be right most of the time.....
Its better to have a few very good indispensable friends than a million acquaintances....
I think ones better off alone than having to come back home to angry words or worse silence inspite of souls around...
reminds me of this song from an album by savage gardens...."more than angry words I hate this silence ...its getting so loud ...."

well well my weeks been a regular week...with not much ups and downs..the usual mondays and thursdays...and late night teachin on tuesdays....and friday was taken up by "adda"...someone left for india....hence..the adda....neway....I have a whole bunch of tutorial tests that need to be marked and sent of before monday....and I have deadlines of my own that need to be met....and I guess thats it...not much to look forward to untill singapore-india trip happens....apart from DRALION...early next month....Cirque du soleil is in the city till mid october....this 'll be my first show...they are amazing....worth paying $120 for a show...:)..... thats all for now....
well well...I have no life....its just uni and home....the only breaks are an accasional movie......and catching up with friends after a long-ish hiatus.....at Max Brenner chocolate bar...O i love that place....it looks like a place out of "charlie and the chocolate factory....it could very well have been a room in willy wonka's factory....has three drums of churning think chocolate....and three massive pipes running throughthat transfers chocolate to the bar.....yummm yummm!!!......


BTW did you know massive chocolate intakes can give you an orgasm....;)...lol....its an aphrodasiac afteralll.... ;)

Things are not going good with a certain friend...and its making me sad....:( I would like to mention I got my very first blogging friends forever award from Keshi.....mwaaaahhh...thanks girlie.....I'm happy to receive it....* can't help smiling*.....

A somebody sent this to me one day when I was feeling extremely low...and for some reason I was thinking abt that person today....we aren't in touch anymore.....but this is how it goes....

Just for today I will try to live through this day only and not tackle my whole life problem at once. I can do something for twelve hours that would appall me if I felt I had to keep it up for a lifetime.
Just for today I will be happy. This assumes to be true what Abraham Lincoln said, "Most folks are happy as they make their minds up to be."
Just for today I will adjust myself to what is and not try to adjust everything to my own desires. I will take my luck as it comes, and fit myself into it.
Just for today I will try to strengthen my mind. I will study. I will learn something useful. I will not be a mental loafer. I will read something that requires effort, thought and concentration.
Just for today I will exercise my soul in three ways. I will do somebody a good turn and not get found out. I will do something I don't want to do—just for exercise. I will be honest about my feelings and take ownership of my needs. I will work to find ways to take care of myself.
Just for today I will be agreeable. I will look as well as I can, dress nicely, act courteously, criticize not one bit, not find fault with others, and not try to improve or regulate anybody except myself.
Just for today I will have a program. I may not follow it exactly, but I will have it. I will save myself from two pests—hurry and indecision.
Just for today I will have a quiet half-hour all by myself and relax. Sometime during this half-hour I will try to get a better perspective of my life.
Just for today I will be unafraid. Especially I will not be afraid to enjoy what is beautiful.If we want to develop a mental attitude that will bring us peace and happiness, here is Rule #1:
Think and act cheerfully, and you will feel cheerful.

red dragon....!!

I'm mighty pissed rite this moment...well my laptop froze and for some reason when it unfroze (taking its own sweet time, like i have all the time in the world) my work was gone. Damn thing kept saying cannot find the file name...whatever...it was half a days work that i lost and with deadlines to meet...Im a fuming smoldering hot fire breathing dragon-ess rite this moment...I mean WTF?!! why me?? god I'm so angryyyyyyy now...
oh and btw....everyone around seems to be getting married...have they nothing better to do...??