home sweet home...

I'm home finally...Been a busy past week...The short stay at singapore was fun too....The one pricey buy there was a swarovski studded beautiful compact from the souvenir shop outside the zoo...which btw is a tropical haven....very pretty....and I finally ended up seeing the ozzie national anmimal at the singapore zooo....!!

Reached kolkata on 17th night...As much as I pine to get back home all the time...the moment I landed attitudes of people around tend to piss me off....neway...starting junking on junk food from day one...and it indian junk food tastes as good as ever...yet to have phutchkas and jhal muri etc...

Met up with two school friends yesterday...meeting point few of the landmarks we always used to meet at...this time it was nandan....My friend R arrived a tad later than she was meant to....and since the time I entered nandan I had noticed a looser eyeing me....finally after a lot of following around he comes up to me and goes..."tomar naam ki?" ...i lie ...then he goes "karur jonno wait korcho?"...and i nod my head....but he continues..."tumio eka amio eka...cholo kache kothao coffe kheet jawa jak..." and I go no...i don't just go with strangers to have a cup of coffee...but persistent looser keen of "franship" continues...."ami jemon temon chele noi....some banker manager...franship korte chailei 5 minute e kora jaye....number dao tomar...please...." by this time i was tired of saying no and freaked out that he would do something crazy...so i called up R and told her a guy was following me around...and inspite of the numerous blisters on my feet (so smart of me to wear new stilletoes and get blisters all over!!) I almost ran..... and I used to think bangalis are in general less of a looser than others....
Not much has changed in kolkata since I was here last year...Its like the city that doesn't change....

It felt very good catching up with old school friends....we wouldn't stop saying "i can't believe we are sitting here talking like in the good old school days." ....... Everyone around has been going on about the new South city centre tooo...so I had to get a sneek peek of the place...and I did..impressive..four storey mall...which has internatioonal brands outlets...and whats convinient is..its about 15 mins from my place....

Have an assignment to tak ecare of and a hurrried lunch to attend to today...so better rush now...

end of hybernation...

I haven't blogged or read others blogs for a while now... Just that I coudn't be bothered kindof attitude has set in .... I couldn't be bothered with nething....Don't want to give a damn about anything....because I have seen at the end of the day it doesn't matter whether you are honestly trying hard to get stuff right or just are another mindfucked soul... trying to make sense of whatever the hell is the way it is and why..... Have been watching a lot of movies of late...at least 1 every night...past midnight.....having difficulty sleeping...getting oe nights peacefull slumber would be welcomed above anything else....Insomnias just become the way of life..and I have tried hard to fight off the millions of things tht I seek answers to...but to no avail...may be I'm destined to be one of the million of unhappy people who just give up after a couple of fights and just learn to live life and accept what has been bestowed (shoved ur way) on one....

I am supposed to get back my marked thesis tomorrow (fingers and toes crossed) and also have the stupid Pol. Eco. presentation tomorrow....I absolutely detest the subject...thank god my topic wasn't that boring...actually its kindof interesting...the importance of econophysics...or the extent of application of physics to economics.... Im all packed ..took me two hours to get that done.... Have to do a fair bit of assignment correction for one of the units I taught this semester...between wednessday and friday...and thn saturday I am free to fly......

I've been looking forward to me trip for a long time now....impatient-ly crossing of days of my calender...but somehow now that its merely 4 days away...I don't feel that rush or excitement...that feeling which is all to familiar when I'm about to go home..anymore...Wonder why.... don't have tht many friends back home nemore..but I can makedo with the buddies that are still hanging around....I guess.... I have to make an extra honest effort to stay home a lot more than last time....so my parents stop winging about me not spending enough time at home last summer..... I guess they are right in their own way......

Next post shall be in about the escapades in India....

an evening to remember....

tonight was a night I shall not forget in a long time....It started like any ordinary saturday.... I had stayed over at my aunts place yesterday night....and today woke up in the morning to my cousin commenting..I'm a very cuddly person to sleep with (hey hey don't take it in a wrong way!!! giggly girls sleeping together and chattering away all night is the image I'm trying to project here)....

Neway I helped out with some garden work for a while...and then I was running late..had plans for the evening... Got dropped of at the station....caught a train back home reached at 2:15pm...went straight to the loo took a warm shower after a change of clothes....and by the time I was starting to get ready...my friend was already knocking on my door......it was mean to be mainly a beach plan...extensive playing with sand and splashing arnd in water followed by movie or dinner plans for the evening....

Everything that could possibly go wrong went wrong today.... We were a group of 5 people...two girls and three guys....three of us forgot the obvious-to get change of clothes and towels...and to top it alll......big mistake- wore white cotton three quarters with a thin white cotton top...and realisation of my stupidity dawned on me when two of the guys started walking to the change room to change into swimwear stuff....I could only wait around the edge of the water and watch em...having lots of fun....and felt like killing myself....Could not believe I did something that stupid...... My three quarters got wet in the wrong places nonetheless....from the little bit splashing around and the sudden spray.... :(

we left the beach around 7:15....sat around and talked for a bit and then went to the respective cars to drive to the city.....but bad luck struck agian....we somehow managed to lose the parking ticket....it slid through the little gap between the steering wheel and the display screen place.....and we spent almost 15 mins searching everywhr for the frikkin piece of paper.....thinking all this while ...what the fuck was goin on? how could it just disappear when it was in my hand just 5 seconds before it went missing....and no one had left the damn car!!!

It was found at last and then the ticket reader would't open for some reason and we had to wait around for an hour before some fucking idiot responsible for smooth operation and security of the parking lot decided to get off his ass...and do what he is paid for...

This was followed by us getting lost in the city and drove around like crazy for about 40 mins and then finally got to the place where we were actually supposed to get in 10 mins....two hours late..and then had dinner at a crap chinese restaurant with food that looked and tasted disgusting....and had mushrooms tht looked like diseased tumours and smelt of god knows what.... the mushrooms (which btw I had to ask one of them...what the brown flappy thingie was?) ...and we were so gonna order fukien fried rice....( fuckin fried rice?!? WTF??) but then decided against it...god knws if what wld be in the fuckin fried rice if thats what they have named it.. :P

and to end the eventful night I lost my phone.....we left the restaurant at 11:15 pm I realised i didn't have my phone at 12:30 am...too late the restaurant was closed and I don't feel to hopefull abput getting my phone back..which means im stuck paying for the phone i don't have nemore and have to get a new phone...

this will stay etched in memory for a while....

sweet...

life's sweet...not always...I'm sure like me a million other people all over the map think at certain times "why më?".... well i am beginning to discover how you can choose to feel the way you feel..... if you are unhappy you can either sit and brood or do something to make life better....

Right at this moment I'm frikkin happy with myself....few odd reasons...enough to make me feel like I'm moonwalking... free of that pull....

I submitted my thesis...I'm not 100% satisfied with my output though... I keep getting this feeling like I missed something.....another couple of weeks till the last piece of assessment is due... and then its all over...one chapter of life completed...and I move on to the next after a brief break...... which I hope shapes up the way I have imagined it in my head.. ;) lat year it had exceeded my expectations....:)

Saw a great flick today "body of lies"....another of ridley scotts kick ass action flicks.... And yet another man added to my list... Leonardo di caprio.... wow that mans maturing with every film....and the man within is pushing through the boyish good looks :)...... Oh and Mark Strong one of the other actors in the film...a british actor whos done the middle eastern accent so welll...and He is sooooo HoT!!!....

thats a piece out of my not so eventful life.....seems like I'm stuck admiring these men... for days to come....

a lot like love...

I got another award by a fellow blogger...Thank you Krystal for awarding me the cutest blogger award...and she is also the tagger for todays post...

This is the first time I'm doing a tag....so here we go..
and its all about love...well lets say a lot about love...shall we....

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
well well reaction would be a three stage process for me...first immense anger,then a lot of pain and lastly slow acceptance...nothing u can do about it... :(

2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
dream come true..i have always wanted to live in a mansion made of chocolate where taps when opened cough up coke and juice or melted chocolate.....something out of willy wonka's world or the house like the one the witch in hansel and grethel owned...

3. Why do you blog?
to let others know a tad more about me...and i guess it acts as a stress ball....not a ball..but lets the steam out when a lot of pressure builds up...

4. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
yeah may be..depends on if he is available....im rather picky so if its a best friend and single theres a big chance I really really like the fellow...:P

5. Which is more blessed: loving someone or being loved by someone?
i would say being loved...you can love someone all you want..u would be blessed if that returns to u..that and more.. :)

6. How long do you intend to wait for someone you love?
depends actually....I could wait for quiet some time if I know for sure its meant to happen so day..may be not now but sometime in near future...just need that bit of reassurance to make it through the waiting period... :P

7. If the person you secretly like is attached, what will you do?
well my bad luck....not much I can do...about it..apart from break em up ...MUHAHAHA...no I wouldn't do that... :P

8. If you could root for one social cause, what would it be?
thats a hard one...I would say child abuse...It breaks my heart... o and also the plight of african natives...specially small kids...a million start their life with HIV in their bloodsteams... :(

9. What takes you down the fastest?
judgemental-morons-with-brains-the-size-of-peanuts-and-mouths-the-size-of-the-face-of-Luna-Park...

10.What resurrects you the fastest?
A good laugh...a meaningful conversation...LOVE...this one works for neone.. ;)

11. What’s your fear?
fear...well i feel lost at the mere thought of losing ones I love forever...I also have another fear...a nightmare that recurrs ever so often...I have walked out of home in the nude...Everytime I picture that I have been jerked out of deep slumber...


12. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
I do not know her wellenough to comment...but from what I can tell...a good soul.. :)

13. Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor?
Depends on who I'm married to....actually no...all the happiness might just get sucked out when one has to deal with money matters and be parsimonious all the time...I pick rich and single... I still get to flirt with other men. yeah??

14. Whats the purpose of such Tags?
no purpose..just killing time ..and letting the world know ur personal choices... :P

15. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously who will you pick?
thats a hard one...may be I won't pick but be happily in love with both...or may be ill pick the one thats crazier...

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
well if its a serious something which I know is mutual...hell yeah..give my all and more... :)

17. Would you forgive and forget someone no matter how horrible a thing he has done?
depends on what the act was....to be honest I might consider forgiving but forgetting never...!!

18. Do you prefer being single or in a relationship?
well better single than alone in a wrong relationship...but again if not that then no doubt in a happy symbiotic relationship...

19. Who/what inspired you to start blogging?
no one in particular heard a lot of people read a few...and so i decided to do it too...

20. Tag 6 people.
not just 6...everyone who reads this..consider urself tagged... :)

to the point...

not much has been happening...poojo came and went...I woudn't have known if not for posts and folks in india...lifes no different from what it was a while back..... well I'm not as miserable...thats a good thing... in dot points life is..

• its summer here....summer breeze..make sme feel good....
• planning on going to the beach....well first proper beach visit this summer...not counting the brief night at the beach a couple of weeks ago...where i walked on to a couple having sex on the beach....almost right next to where the waves come a break... hey don't roll your eyes...wasn't my fault..it was pretty dark..at 10:30pm...... i mean make pout fine...but stark naked on the beach..who wld think...
• thesis finally due...im handing in before the deadline :P
• watched "forgetting sarah marshall" "a lot like love"... (again :P i ox the film) and "the machinist" yesterday....
• someone told me i should socialise more and go out more and stay online less than i usually am...which is true...but somehow i get bored by people easily.....
• might go to a cbd hotel/club/bar...a friends boss is apparently a super kool DJ who is DJ-ing there tonight....so i guess another night of merrymaking etc...
• P is off to M to patch up with R...hope they reach a decision....they spend more time trying to hurt each other or nursing wounds...than happy-ly making out...involves a lot of verbal pain....why together if only to hurt the other one..might as well part ways...:P
• a month and a bit left till my much awaited get away....

well thats all for now.... :)

cirque du soleil...

summers here...violent summer breeze around me...more like norwesters in kolkata .....at times....yet another poojo almost gone..today is nobomi (i got it right this time :P) I was not in a mood to go attend the weekend rushed poojo that is a familiar picture in a couple of places here...

The weather was not that favourable anyway...went to watch Dralion (its a portmanteau..blend between east and west) on sunday...soptomi...and it was worth the money...very nice lightwork and costumes...the acts they put together were just as good...there was a big mess up with the special classes we were meant to be having over the long weekend....no one ended up going...

i was going through a lot of recent updates on blogville..and all bongs are no doubt raving and ranting about the poojos....and what they did (if they were in kol) or what they are missing and winging (if out of the city)... I would do the same normally...but right now I don't somehow feel like I missed much...usually I'm always on about how I'm missing it yet another time...whtevr..may be im finally getting used to the feeling...and may be I shall stop missing it..altogether in a couple of years time......

apart from that well not much to say actually...I am the proud owner of HOuse S 1 through to 5 (whatever has been aired already in the US ) :)....and now theres another month and few days till I'm Outta here...can hardly wait... :) subho bijoya doshomi to all (in advance).....

on an ending note...I had a lecture in the evening....and just when everyone (two other fellow class mates and the lecturer) was listening/bored....Matt...one of the guys farted real loud....and instead of trying to ignore what just happened....David asked him.."did U just Fart out loud?"....boy I almost fell off my chair...and it was a torture thereafter to stay in class and maintain a straight face...coz could hardly hold it in.... :P